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[ Tuesday, August 12, 2008 | 10:04 PM ]
relationships
 okay , so i suddenly thought of relationships when i was in the bus with iifahh .entah eh , she told me about her friend who has a long distance relationship , and was like being cheated like that . wahh , i thought long distance relationship should and would work better . oh , maybe IF BOTH parties were to have strong feelings towards each other , and were very loyal to one another , i don't think that would ever happen . for me only , not even long distance , i was being controlled like crazy . and but being a fact that i was the loyal type , ( wahhseyy ! HAHAHA .) but like seriously , i was damn loyal ah , to my last ex . and i never thought that he would treat me that way . he cheated on me for another , and with him was the longest relationship i ever had ah . another one more month was going to be two years already , but sadly , he loves HER more than me . saddening isn't it ? he controlled me like crazy , thinking that he would and dont ever want to let me go , and skali he like this . like i cant talk to anyone and all . alah , senang kate , no freedom . abeh , he can do whatever gituh ah . lepak and all , abeh i cant go out and all . wtf gituh kan ? ade matair susah , takde matair susah . ade matair kene committed , which i don't really mind ah , because to me , if i love that person so much , haha , i don't think i would go for another and all . (: all my exs were long term relationships , so yeah , if i can stay loyal to them , why can't they right ? stupid lah all this thing . sometimes seeing other people with their loved ones , we tend to get jealous and all , yahlah , like so caring and loving . the happyhappy part we can see , abeh the sad part we dont know what right ? sometimes ah , i felt like giving up in all this thing , but kan , it's like it comes naturally , when you like that someone and all . for me , i go for the guy who can treat me well , and someone whom i can relate with ah , communicate and all . what matters most is the heart lah . wahh . dream guy sia like that . not handsome sangat or rich or what i dont mind sia , cos his attitude will match his appearance what . haha .. i don't know why , i choose to post this entry . but i think , iifahh , sab and ashila can see how committed i was when i was with my ex . (: ALLAH ... why eh , kenape ? why when we tend to love that someone so much , that person would go away ? when we found another , then , they would come back to us ? why when they left us , it was hard for us to move on , but to them it was like soooo easy ? hahahaha , jangan dilayan , merepek aje lebih . =.= |